“When words become unclear, I shall focus with photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence.” — Ansel Adams

Joseph Balson

Into my Darkness

I am an autistic photographer, battling depression at some degree for ages, and what actually now feels like all my life.

Looking Death in the eyeFinalist in People, Part of the 2018 4th CEPIC Stock Photography Awards. Winner in the photocrowd contest "I dare you", September 2018 Buy prints here: https://joseph-balson.viewbug.com/prints

In this series of self portraits I explore misery, hell, nightmares, self harms ideations, dispair, loneliness and the sadness of my journey into depression and suicidal thougts. Think of it as a way to exorcise the darkest ideations that come with these mental health issues, maybe as a twisted way to express myself when I'm not capable of doing so with words. Maybe it is a way of documenting, sharing what I feel, what I experience, but who would want to share that?

What it is to me doesn't really matter in the end, because that is you, who are looking at those photos, who will decide what this book is. This is also why I decided to not add any title or text. You will find here photos, only photos, and it is up to you to decide the meaning of each photo, of each set of photos.

I realize this is definitely not the best selling plot ever for a photography book. But it is honest: like all the photos in this book, brutally honest and blunt. You get the naked truth, the physical and the mental scars.

You can buy this book on Blurb, here: http://www.blurb.com/b/8897145-into-my-darkness

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